I was married to a Reform Rabbi. I thought that being a Rebbitzin was everything my life was supposed to be, but I was a bit more religious then my Rabbi husband. I fit well in his first congregation. They had broken off from the conservative congregation over a disagreement and when forming there own congregation chose to be reform because there was already an orthodox congregation in the area. But, I found myself unhappy and questioning what should have been a very good life. One night, before falling asleep, I prayed to God and asked Him, 'what is the truth'. To my surprise, I awoke the next morning with the strong urge to read the gentile bible; the New Testament. At that time,I thought the gentile bible with it's multiple gods was very pagan, anti-Jewish, and not something a Jew should be involved in but the urge was strong. I went downtown and found a bookstore that I thought would probably have a bible. I did not want anyone knowing that I had a gentile bible so I stood on the street, pretending to window shop until there was no one on the street or in the bookstore. I rushed in, found the bibles and quickly grabbed one.

When I got home and was alone, I decided if I was going to read this thing, I had to be fair about it. I determined that I would read it as a somewhat accurate history book. I started from the beginning. As I read Matthew, I kept having to remind myself to allow for some historical value. By the time I started reading Mark, I was involved in the story. I was a little startled at the Jewishness of the gentile bible and wondered what the gentiles could possibly see or understand from it. My heroes were the Pharisees. In one big confrontation, Yeshua was asked what was the greatest commandment. I stopped reading a moment and thought about that question. What law would be the greatest? If we said dietary/Kosher laws, then the question comes how about thou shall not murder or what about the Sabbath. I could not see where any law from God could be considered greater then another. I thought they had Yeshua trapped. When I looked back at the book I was startled to see Yeshua answer. He was reciting the Shma! Here oh Israel the Lord our God, the Lord is One. Of course being Jewish I knew this was central and true. Yeshua went on, You shall love the Lord with all you heart, mind, and strength. Now reciting this or praying this I considered a law, but the actual practice of this? We were commanded to say this, teach this to our children and put it on the doorposts of our house. Yeshua was absolutely right. This is the greatest commandment. Why didn't the ones who asked the question see this answer and why didn't I? I was convinced. Yeshua is who He says He is. He is the Jewish Messiah. The Tanakh and the New Testament are inseparable. To reject the New Testament is to reject the Old. I accepted both and Yeshua is my Messiah.

Who else but the Lord Himself could answer my question, What is the truth. The truth is; Yeshua is Messiah and Yeshua is the Truth.